Well, it's here. The thing I've been dreading for about two weeks.
The last day of maternity leave. My last day with the boys, before I rejoin the world of working folks. I'll be back at the helm come Monday. :(
I started the boys at daycare this week, because I wanted to have a chance to getting them (and mostly me) used to going. That, and I hoped that it would make sort of a schedule and allow me to (try to) get out of the house "on time" in the AM. We didn't do too badly, but Will is a bit pokey like he always has been. I love that toddler imagination and the places that it takes him! But in the mornings when I'm pleading with him to not take off his shoes to "get in his spaceship" (AKA the bathroom), not so much. Plus, on Monday Brian and I had a day just for us. And the rest of the week I had to myself!! I made a bunch of appointments, went to the library without someone tugging me in the direction of the kids' DVD's, and knitted. Knitted to my heart's content. I don't have much to show for that knitting, as I was working on a VERY frustrating project that I finally just put to the wayside. Not every project is meant to be, though I'm annoyed that a pattern got the best of me. Instead, I am working on my first sweater! It's a denim blue sweater for Sean, and I'm really excited about it.
Oops, I got a bit off-topic. So yes, back to the grind on Monday. I'm happy to be able to get out of the house every day (maternity leave in winter is a bit bleak sometimes) and have adult conversation. But I feel pulled in a few different directions: I lack a bit of confidence about my job at this moment in time, which I'm hoping will dissipate once I'm there for a bit. And I want to stay home with my baby boy! I know from experience that this will get easier with time.
So for my last day of maternity leave, I am going to an Easter Egg Hunt with my boys. My first outing alone with two kids. I picked something that I won't care as much if Will runs off from me, since it's in a gym. And we're sure to have a blast.